First of all let me stress I can't thank God enough for the awesome opportunity He is giving Eric and allowing him to go on this internship. I am so proud of Eric as well. Also, I guess I should thank God in advance for what He will probably teach me on this journey ahead of me. For those of yall who don't know me well enough. I am not a big one for change. I mean once the results are in I am thankful for the change, however, the whole process of change is one I struggle with. I like things to be the norm and when a change comes that isn't the norm. I'm weird I know I know. However, I have run across many encouraging things lately and I am giong to go against the norm (mini freak out moment) and try to dive head first into change, to beat it to the chase so to speak.
One thing I really struggle with is fear...fear of change...fear of losing people I love...fear of new situations...this fall I am going to strive to face these fears... Ralph Waldo Emerson once said..."It was from a high counsel I once heard given a young man ..Do what you are afraid to do."
I think alot of what holds me back from trying new things and things I am afraid to do is ultimately the fear of failure...when looking back in my life I realize that everyone who does something makes a mistake...the only ones who don't make mistakes are those who don't try it. This fall I am going to resolve to try to do something at least once a week that I would normally be afriad to do.
My God tells me in 2 Timothy 1:7- "For God hath not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and of a sound mind." My fear isn't from God it is from Satan himself. I don't want Satan to have the glory. So no matter how much my knees shake, I am going to try new things this fall and try to leave my cozy, little bubble and enjoy life without the fear of new things :)
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