Firstly, i guess a B12 shot will be in my near future. It's only the third day in and between school, work, and family time I am EXHAUSTED. Don't get me wrong I have had fun, I am just completely devoid of energy. Also on my to do list willl be to remember what foods and things provide excess B12 (those besides the best sources such as mussels, squid, liver, fish eggs, and so on.)....these are foods I will not eat unless life itself depends on it.....I hear that many cereals are fortified with B12 so maybe I will look into that, I am not a big caffeine or energy drink drinker (although occasionally I will have a nice big glass of sweet tea :) Energy drinks are a no no on my list. There has never been a time where I have a had an energy drink and haven't broken out in hives. Just the other day I decided to test the apparent allergy and sure enough a few hours after i drank said drink I regretted it...so either supplements or a shot will be in my near future.
As far as work has gone, I have absolutely no complaints. Work is wonderful (I have a job to get me through bills and school so I can't complain) though it may be a tad bit frustrating at times overall it is a good job with goood people.
School has been fun so far (emphasis on the so far) I am not a big fan of my statistics class, not because of my teacher, simply because statistics doesn't really interest me that much. This very day I contemplated going home and skipping it but I reminded myself to push to succeed in all that I do, so I am sticking it out (as I try not to fall asleep while waiting for it) I have a five hour break between my class before statistics and statistics....but that was the only class left available and I need to get it out of the way.
whenever i feel like I am going to whine or complain I just remind myself of a precious friend of mine who is probably one of the bravest people I know for taking 23 hours this semester. She is my inspiration for school and work this semester.
I am also blessed to have a class with my friend Jonah this semester. Classes are always more fun when you have a friend int he class to motivate you and keep you accountable for coming. Let's face it school isn't cheap so you might as well get everything out of it that you pay for it.
While Eric is gone i am so glad and thankful to have my good friends by my side. Some of them I have known for quite a while and some of them I am getting to know better. One of them, and she knows who she is, may not know it but she is constantly challenging me (in a good way) and making me think. I feel like I am discovering a little bit about myself and it is def. all thanks to her. I personally think she missed her call in motivational speaking.
SO not much to talk about life is just settling into the schedule of fall and while its not normalcy yet I think in a few weeks it just might be :) I can't complain about anything in life right now :)
Now off to plan on how to get some natural energy!!!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Ready...Set....Go
This weekend has been a whirlwind and an emotional roller coaster. I am not saying that I wouldn't want to do this weekend over, simply that it has been exhausting.
My third night of training at my new job landed me running the front of the restaurant by myself. This essentially means I was in charge of all orders for both dine in and carry out.....that phone never, and I mean literally, never stopped ringing from 5 pm- 11 pm. Two people called in on their shift which left me helpless, still learning and by myself. yes I made some mistakes (about 7 out of my 125 guest check) Luckily, Rod wasn't mad at me (phew) and after a shift all by my lonesome in which I voluntarily stayed an extra hour past my schedule...i think I have partially earned Rod's full trust. So, Friday night was full of work.
Saturday rolled along. I cleaned the majority of my room. there is barely anything left to do (score) and then I went to watch my brother's first exhibition game at the Jamboree (GO ELLENDALE BEARS) Football has always been a sport I like to watch so I have a blast going to watch dear brother play ball. ( side note: i would still love to watch him play any sport) Their 10 minute exhibition game ended a tie score of 0-0. It was very hot outside for his game so we decided to head to yogurt mountain (yummy original tart frozen yogurt which taste like greek yogurt....IM IN LOVE!!!) We also had dinner as a family at COlton's and then headed to Dicks sporting goods for a few minutes (where brother, sister, and I couldn't find the parentals ) so we did what we normally do in stores in this situatin....we shout marco and wait to hear polo....the looks from people are the best...
I watched the midnight bike race with Miriam and then took an impromtu trip at 4 am to Nashville with another friend this morning so she could pick up her little girl, who had been spending the weekend with her daddy. Unfortunately, her dad is in the national guard and was ordered to the east coast for Irene. No sleep Saturday night plus a road trip with a 3 year old is very tiring.
Tonight was orchestra, I picked up a book at Hastings for a steal of $3.99, then had sushi and yogurt mountain with my friends Sarah, Nicole, and Jonah. ERIC YOU WERE GREATLY MISSED!!!
Very little sleep and tons of coffee and energy drinks to combat this didn't help to add to my emotional exhaustion already occuring so I have been taking great measures to avoid a meltdown...even though it is my own fault. lol.
I am at the point now where I know I will be fine just ready for some shut eye.
Tomorrow I start school. I am super excited. I am ready to buckle down, be serious, and get this nursing degree and spanish degree :)
Well, this post was def. a rambler. sorry guys. Gnight!
My third night of training at my new job landed me running the front of the restaurant by myself. This essentially means I was in charge of all orders for both dine in and carry out.....that phone never, and I mean literally, never stopped ringing from 5 pm- 11 pm. Two people called in on their shift which left me helpless, still learning and by myself. yes I made some mistakes (about 7 out of my 125 guest check) Luckily, Rod wasn't mad at me (phew) and after a shift all by my lonesome in which I voluntarily stayed an extra hour past my schedule...i think I have partially earned Rod's full trust. So, Friday night was full of work.
Saturday rolled along. I cleaned the majority of my room. there is barely anything left to do (score) and then I went to watch my brother's first exhibition game at the Jamboree (GO ELLENDALE BEARS) Football has always been a sport I like to watch so I have a blast going to watch dear brother play ball. ( side note: i would still love to watch him play any sport) Their 10 minute exhibition game ended a tie score of 0-0. It was very hot outside for his game so we decided to head to yogurt mountain (yummy original tart frozen yogurt which taste like greek yogurt....IM IN LOVE!!!) We also had dinner as a family at COlton's and then headed to Dicks sporting goods for a few minutes (where brother, sister, and I couldn't find the parentals ) so we did what we normally do in stores in this situatin....we shout marco and wait to hear polo....the looks from people are the best...
I watched the midnight bike race with Miriam and then took an impromtu trip at 4 am to Nashville with another friend this morning so she could pick up her little girl, who had been spending the weekend with her daddy. Unfortunately, her dad is in the national guard and was ordered to the east coast for Irene. No sleep Saturday night plus a road trip with a 3 year old is very tiring.
Tonight was orchestra, I picked up a book at Hastings for a steal of $3.99, then had sushi and yogurt mountain with my friends Sarah, Nicole, and Jonah. ERIC YOU WERE GREATLY MISSED!!!
Very little sleep and tons of coffee and energy drinks to combat this didn't help to add to my emotional exhaustion already occuring so I have been taking great measures to avoid a meltdown...even though it is my own fault. lol.
I am at the point now where I know I will be fine just ready for some shut eye.
Tomorrow I start school. I am super excited. I am ready to buckle down, be serious, and get this nursing degree and spanish degree :)
Well, this post was def. a rambler. sorry guys. Gnight!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Content in His Arms
I took a brief hiatus...yes all of two days....truthfully nothing blog worthy has happened over the past few days..nothing notable or of any important length to write just on blog on. My Sunday and Monday were nice.
Sunday I slept past two alarms ( and for those of yall who DON"T know me) I am the person that can hear my brothers alarm from across the house through his closed door and while he sleeps through it I can't go back to sleep until he ( or osmeone else ) turns it off. So i realized how worn out Saturday had made me since I had mastered sleeping through two of my own alarms right next to me ear. I decided to take Sunday easy. Went over to my grandparents house and hung out wiht my brother for a little bit (housesitting makes me really miss my family.) Then my grandma and I went to Yogurt Mountain (I was in heaven), we had both been craving it all week, so it was nice to go and spend some time with Grammy and talk. :) I love Yogurt Mountain's original tart!! It tastes just like greek yogurt!!! Yummy!!! Then off to orchestra practice I went. We are in full blown music quest mode so we are playing many John Williams pieces, along with some Die Hard, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, and a Cartoon Comedy Medley consisting of such pieces as: Looney Toons, Super Mario Bro., Spongebob, and the Smurfs!!!! I love my orchestra family at Bellevue. They are all so encouraging, it truly is a great time of laughs and fellowships. Followed was Sunday night service with my friends. The sermon was refreshing and just what I needed to start my week off. :)
On the way home I got a call from my boss at Mother's Day Out (I sub for them from time to time) and she asked me if I would work in the baby room Monday from 9-3. YES!!! This used to be my old summer job and I miss it dearly. :)
So Monday morning I got up and went to work with my sweet friend Jennifer, the classes recently promoted up, which for the infant room, means new babies. New babies who have never been away from mom and dad before so it was an interesting day, but I wouldn't have not done it. Getting to see babies laugh, giggle, coo, and just do silly things could brighten anyone's day. I played patty cake with several of the babies and they couldn't get enough. Watchingg them "roll it up" was definitely a sight to see as some of them were intently watching their hands as they did it.
I always love just rocking the babies to sleep or just holding them in general.
Babies are so trusting. So calm and secure in the arms that hold them.(pretty much no matter whose arms.) Whether you are holding them calmly, or walking with them at a slightly speedy pace, or whether you are throwing them up in the air to catch them, they just laugh and giggle completely content and completely secure. It really made me think about my relationship with God. Lately I have learned to just be content in his arms. Whether times are good, rushed, or hectic and whether or not I feel like I am in the up's and down's of life I have just been learning to hold on tight and be content in his arms. I am His child after all and He has always been faithful to hold on tight, to just wrap His arms around me and walk with me through whatever the day brings. I am learning not to worry as much and just go with the flow, in his arms. A friend of mine, who has done so much discovering herself this summer told me that, yes, Eric being gone would be hard but that I was going to be learning so much this fall. She definitely was right , and if this is only what happens one week in I can't wait to see what the rest of the fall brings or how I will deepen a current understanding I have.
I truly believe God is using thsi fall to prepare Eric and I for our future. :) I am excited to see where God takes us in this future He has planned for us, but for now I am content where I am. I am being held in my Abba Father's arms and I will hold on tight through whatever comes :)
Sunday I slept past two alarms ( and for those of yall who DON"T know me) I am the person that can hear my brothers alarm from across the house through his closed door and while he sleeps through it I can't go back to sleep until he ( or osmeone else ) turns it off. So i realized how worn out Saturday had made me since I had mastered sleeping through two of my own alarms right next to me ear. I decided to take Sunday easy. Went over to my grandparents house and hung out wiht my brother for a little bit (housesitting makes me really miss my family.) Then my grandma and I went to Yogurt Mountain (I was in heaven), we had both been craving it all week, so it was nice to go and spend some time with Grammy and talk. :) I love Yogurt Mountain's original tart!! It tastes just like greek yogurt!!! Yummy!!! Then off to orchestra practice I went. We are in full blown music quest mode so we are playing many John Williams pieces, along with some Die Hard, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, and a Cartoon Comedy Medley consisting of such pieces as: Looney Toons, Super Mario Bro., Spongebob, and the Smurfs!!!! I love my orchestra family at Bellevue. They are all so encouraging, it truly is a great time of laughs and fellowships. Followed was Sunday night service with my friends. The sermon was refreshing and just what I needed to start my week off. :)
On the way home I got a call from my boss at Mother's Day Out (I sub for them from time to time) and she asked me if I would work in the baby room Monday from 9-3. YES!!! This used to be my old summer job and I miss it dearly. :)
So Monday morning I got up and went to work with my sweet friend Jennifer, the classes recently promoted up, which for the infant room, means new babies. New babies who have never been away from mom and dad before so it was an interesting day, but I wouldn't have not done it. Getting to see babies laugh, giggle, coo, and just do silly things could brighten anyone's day. I played patty cake with several of the babies and they couldn't get enough. Watchingg them "roll it up" was definitely a sight to see as some of them were intently watching their hands as they did it.
I always love just rocking the babies to sleep or just holding them in general.
Babies are so trusting. So calm and secure in the arms that hold them.(pretty much no matter whose arms.) Whether you are holding them calmly, or walking with them at a slightly speedy pace, or whether you are throwing them up in the air to catch them, they just laugh and giggle completely content and completely secure. It really made me think about my relationship with God. Lately I have learned to just be content in his arms. Whether times are good, rushed, or hectic and whether or not I feel like I am in the up's and down's of life I have just been learning to hold on tight and be content in his arms. I am His child after all and He has always been faithful to hold on tight, to just wrap His arms around me and walk with me through whatever the day brings. I am learning not to worry as much and just go with the flow, in his arms. A friend of mine, who has done so much discovering herself this summer told me that, yes, Eric being gone would be hard but that I was going to be learning so much this fall. She definitely was right , and if this is only what happens one week in I can't wait to see what the rest of the fall brings or how I will deepen a current understanding I have.
I truly believe God is using thsi fall to prepare Eric and I for our future. :) I am excited to see where God takes us in this future He has planned for us, but for now I am content where I am. I am being held in my Abba Father's arms and I will hold on tight through whatever comes :)
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Day of Weddings
Today has been a day full of emotions!! Good emotions. It has also been busy to say the least...I started out my day at my good friend Nicole's house where she was curling my hair for the wedding I was in. Lord bless Nicole and her magical Chi straightener that curls my hair AMAZINGLY!!! Like better than a professional hair stylist and her curling iron!! My curls are still in 12 hours later ( a real accompishment for my hair).
Anywho, the first wedding my good friend Katie's was absolutely gorgeous!!! I didn't trip didn't fall (YAY FOR ME) and it was just so nice to be able to share in her special day with her , and I scored some gorgeous earrings for being in her wedding ( which isn't super important but an added bonus)
After Katie's wedding I rushed on over to Gracie's wedding with my friends and watched their lovely (super quick ) wedding. Poor Gracie the power at the church was out but we had the wedding anyway and it was lovely with a rocking reception to follow. we danced and had fun. I only stayed for about 45 minutes though because i was exhausted... if there is one thing that weddings will do it is make you realize how much you miss your special someone. lol.
well i felt like i have kiind of just mumbled through this one but my brain is turning itself off for the night so maybe my next post will be a little more lively.
have a great night!
Anywho, the first wedding my good friend Katie's was absolutely gorgeous!!! I didn't trip didn't fall (YAY FOR ME) and it was just so nice to be able to share in her special day with her , and I scored some gorgeous earrings for being in her wedding ( which isn't super important but an added bonus)
After Katie's wedding I rushed on over to Gracie's wedding with my friends and watched their lovely (super quick ) wedding. Poor Gracie the power at the church was out but we had the wedding anyway and it was lovely with a rocking reception to follow. we danced and had fun. I only stayed for about 45 minutes though because i was exhausted... if there is one thing that weddings will do it is make you realize how much you miss your special someone. lol.
well i felt like i have kiind of just mumbled through this one but my brain is turning itself off for the night so maybe my next post will be a little more lively.
have a great night!
Friday, August 19, 2011
Katie is getting married!!!
The day she has waited for will finally be here tomorrow. My good friend from highschool Katie is getting married!!!! i couldn't be more happy for her and couldn't be more honored to be in her wedding. Tomorrow, I will put on my spanx (which iin a few months I won't need yay) , put on the green dress and be a part of HER special day!! She def. deserves this and I can't imagine a better guy for her than her fiancee Timothy!
Today we had our bridesmaid luncheon at Chili's...I have to rave about their lunch combo menu real quick. I had half of a turkey sandwich which came with a bowl of soup (or salad) I opted for soup and a few french fries (literally like 8, just enough to curb a craving but not enough to any damage) That half sandwich was so filling, I couldn't even finish my soup...and all for 6 bucks plus tax!!! Although, I def. did miss my run today with all the carbs!!! Yikes!!!!
Next we went to get our mani/pedi!!! Since I have been in the healthcare field manicures haven't been an option for about a year now so I was excited!! The pedicure was AMAZING!!! Made even better by the fact that five of us went and I was the last one so my feet got to soak in that glorious water and I got to get my neck and shoulders massaged by that wonderful chair for a glorious 30 minutes before they got to me....the downside...pruny feet..yuck. The fun part came for the manicure....for those of yall who know me I am a subconscious nail biter......yes my name is Allyson Moore and I am a ...nailbiter....phew now that that is off of my chest back to the blog. Well nail biting means in order to have a french manicure you have to have tips put on. NO PROBLEM!! The guy who did my nails had fun giving me a hard time.
One thing i realized while sitting in that chair is that iit is fun to have time wiht just the girls, and I don't have to feel bad about not being with Eric.
After pampering time, I came back to the house I am staying at and played wiht the puppies and relaxed for a few hours and then it was time to head to the rehearsal.
I got to the church to meet everyone and my escort for the wedding. Quite the gentlemen in wasting no time in informing me he was engaged (in a polite joking way).....apparently within the first minute of meeting boys I give off an "i'm interested" vibe. Haha just kidding. He meant it in the sweetest way. The rehearsal was fun. The two flower girls are Katie's niece K and L. K is one year older ...well everytime K would drop a petal L would promptly pick it up behind her and tuck it into her basket....PRICELESS! After a few run throughs (and me realizing I have fallen in love with a certain song for my own wedding down the road) it was time for dinner. We were paired with our escorts for dinner so we could get to know each other (Timothy went to school in Pensacola, Florida so this was the first time we were meeting the groomsmen. So my friend Connie and I sat at a table with our "guys" and Connie's boyfriend David. We had a blast. My "guy" is finishing up premed to go to med school so he, Connie, and I had plenty to talk about.
I had forgotten how much fun it was to meet new people. Normally in a situation like this I would have just sat there and been quiet but I am so glad I faced a fear (my fear faced for this week) and opened up and talked to and met new people. It was a releasing feeling in a way and I am glad I did it.
Well, there is much to do tonight and an early morning so goodnight all!!!
Today we had our bridesmaid luncheon at Chili's...I have to rave about their lunch combo menu real quick. I had half of a turkey sandwich which came with a bowl of soup (or salad) I opted for soup and a few french fries (literally like 8, just enough to curb a craving but not enough to any damage) That half sandwich was so filling, I couldn't even finish my soup...and all for 6 bucks plus tax!!! Although, I def. did miss my run today with all the carbs!!! Yikes!!!!
Next we went to get our mani/pedi!!! Since I have been in the healthcare field manicures haven't been an option for about a year now so I was excited!! The pedicure was AMAZING!!! Made even better by the fact that five of us went and I was the last one so my feet got to soak in that glorious water and I got to get my neck and shoulders massaged by that wonderful chair for a glorious 30 minutes before they got to me....the downside...pruny feet..yuck. The fun part came for the manicure....for those of yall who know me I am a subconscious nail biter......yes my name is Allyson Moore and I am a ...nailbiter....phew now that that is off of my chest back to the blog. Well nail biting means in order to have a french manicure you have to have tips put on. NO PROBLEM!! The guy who did my nails had fun giving me a hard time.
One thing i realized while sitting in that chair is that iit is fun to have time wiht just the girls, and I don't have to feel bad about not being with Eric.
After pampering time, I came back to the house I am staying at and played wiht the puppies and relaxed for a few hours and then it was time to head to the rehearsal.
I got to the church to meet everyone and my escort for the wedding. Quite the gentlemen in wasting no time in informing me he was engaged (in a polite joking way).....apparently within the first minute of meeting boys I give off an "i'm interested" vibe. Haha just kidding. He meant it in the sweetest way. The rehearsal was fun. The two flower girls are Katie's niece K and L. K is one year older ...well everytime K would drop a petal L would promptly pick it up behind her and tuck it into her basket....PRICELESS! After a few run throughs (and me realizing I have fallen in love with a certain song for my own wedding down the road) it was time for dinner. We were paired with our escorts for dinner so we could get to know each other (Timothy went to school in Pensacola, Florida so this was the first time we were meeting the groomsmen. So my friend Connie and I sat at a table with our "guys" and Connie's boyfriend David. We had a blast. My "guy" is finishing up premed to go to med school so he, Connie, and I had plenty to talk about.
I had forgotten how much fun it was to meet new people. Normally in a situation like this I would have just sat there and been quiet but I am so glad I faced a fear (my fear faced for this week) and opened up and talked to and met new people. It was a releasing feeling in a way and I am glad I did it.
Well, there is much to do tonight and an early morning so goodnight all!!!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Lazy Day
The title pretty much sums up my day...LAZY.
I started house sitting/dogsitting today and all I have done is sit around the house. Once the rain broke I wanted to go running because the house I am at is in a beautiful neighborhood, but sadly, I forgot my tennis shoes at home...and don't really wanna drive the thirty minutes back home to get them. I am contemplating running in my cross toe old navy flip flops though....hmmm. I think I will.
I actually think it is a good thing I be lazy today, in order to prepare for this busy weekend. My old friend from high school Katie is getting married Saturday!!! I couldn't be more excited for her!!!!!
So tomorrow starts the festivities of the bridesmaid luncheon (oh yeah I am one of the bridesmaid by the way...ultra excited) and then we're getting our mani/pedi (i'm not real big on the pedicure part) but who doesn't like a little pampering every once in a while. :) Then rehearsal dinner and THEN.....WEDDING DAY SATURDAY!!!!
I am so excited for Katie and T.C. and can't wait for them to embark on this wonderful journey and blessing God is going to bless them with and lead them on.
This definitely is a season of weddings for my friends. At first I was a little jealous, then I realized God has his perfect timing for everything and dating is such a great experience (or in my case courting), its one that doesn't come very often...I could have the rest of my life to be married to Eric, but this is our time to date and we want to make is special...so really I don't find myself being jealous. I know we are both where we are supposed to be and to be honest that is one thing that makes him being in Disney right now so much easier. God gifted Eric with a passion and a talent for what he is doing and after all if we are to glorify God in what we do then Eric being at Disney is right where he needs to be.
In the meanwhile, I will be here in Memphis where I am supposed to be saving money, paying off bills, and pursuing my nursing degree step by step trusting God through it all. A long distance relationship isn't as bad as I thought it would be, granted its only been 5 days but still, I thought I would have been reduced to a ball of sniffling tears by now and I'm not. I am happy for him where he is and I know that he is too. So, though I miss him, I couldn't be happier for him and will eagerly await the 63 days left until i get to go down and see him.
Besides, I mean I have so much to look forward to this fall. I have friends coming back from summer trips, I am making some new friends, and even rekindling some old friendships (that I miss dearly) One of my dear friends, with whom I haven't spoken to in forever, text me out of the blue the other day with an encouraging text. It was as if God was winking at me, this person had been on my heart and I had been missing her terribly lately and just when I was at the point of literally becoming broken over it she text me. I love her so much and only wish the best for her and getting to talk to her for a little bit was so encouraging and really just made me smile.
My challenge for you today: ENCOURAGE SOMEONE, it can be anyone really. A current friend, an old friend, a brand new friend, heck someone you don't even know. Encouragement can mean so much to someone. :)
I started house sitting/dogsitting today and all I have done is sit around the house. Once the rain broke I wanted to go running because the house I am at is in a beautiful neighborhood, but sadly, I forgot my tennis shoes at home...and don't really wanna drive the thirty minutes back home to get them. I am contemplating running in my cross toe old navy flip flops though....hmmm. I think I will.
I actually think it is a good thing I be lazy today, in order to prepare for this busy weekend. My old friend from high school Katie is getting married Saturday!!! I couldn't be more excited for her!!!!!
So tomorrow starts the festivities of the bridesmaid luncheon (oh yeah I am one of the bridesmaid by the way...ultra excited) and then we're getting our mani/pedi (i'm not real big on the pedicure part) but who doesn't like a little pampering every once in a while. :) Then rehearsal dinner and THEN.....WEDDING DAY SATURDAY!!!!
I am so excited for Katie and T.C. and can't wait for them to embark on this wonderful journey and blessing God is going to bless them with and lead them on.
This definitely is a season of weddings for my friends. At first I was a little jealous, then I realized God has his perfect timing for everything and dating is such a great experience (or in my case courting), its one that doesn't come very often...I could have the rest of my life to be married to Eric, but this is our time to date and we want to make is special...so really I don't find myself being jealous. I know we are both where we are supposed to be and to be honest that is one thing that makes him being in Disney right now so much easier. God gifted Eric with a passion and a talent for what he is doing and after all if we are to glorify God in what we do then Eric being at Disney is right where he needs to be.
In the meanwhile, I will be here in Memphis where I am supposed to be saving money, paying off bills, and pursuing my nursing degree step by step trusting God through it all. A long distance relationship isn't as bad as I thought it would be, granted its only been 5 days but still, I thought I would have been reduced to a ball of sniffling tears by now and I'm not. I am happy for him where he is and I know that he is too. So, though I miss him, I couldn't be happier for him and will eagerly await the 63 days left until i get to go down and see him.
Besides, I mean I have so much to look forward to this fall. I have friends coming back from summer trips, I am making some new friends, and even rekindling some old friendships (that I miss dearly) One of my dear friends, with whom I haven't spoken to in forever, text me out of the blue the other day with an encouraging text. It was as if God was winking at me, this person had been on my heart and I had been missing her terribly lately and just when I was at the point of literally becoming broken over it she text me. I love her so much and only wish the best for her and getting to talk to her for a little bit was so encouraging and really just made me smile.
My challenge for you today: ENCOURAGE SOMEONE, it can be anyone really. A current friend, an old friend, a brand new friend, heck someone you don't even know. Encouragement can mean so much to someone. :)
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Getting Ready for the Fall
So I got the job!!! Now i have my source of income lined up and school all in order...the only thing left to do is enjoy my last week or so until school starts. I am very ready for school to start. I mean, sure once it gets going there are some days when I'm like....really school...but even then I know that I would rather be doing school.
I start my job training next tuesday. Our uniform is very relaxed for which I am very thankful!!!! Tennis shoes, Jeans, and the company TSHIRT!!!! Yes to no polo!!! :):):) Obviously very happy about this one.
I have been striving to better myself lately so one thing I did yesterday was watch a girl talk DVD with my friend. Girl Talk is something we do at Bellevue where there is a speaker and a specific topic and its a girls night essentially (as if you couldn't have figured that out).
Well this time the speaker Shaunti Feldhahn spoke about her book "For Women Only." I was BLOWN AWAY by the things I learned.
For example: As women we crave love so we would naturally assume men do also....WRONG.... some men would give up hearing his woman say "i Love you" if it meant we could say "we trust, respect, am proud of" etc. Men equate respect with love. If we love them then we will respect them.
Shaunti pointed out that in the Bible we are commanded as wives to "respect our husbands" and as husband they are to "love your wives". WOW!
There were many other subjects such as sex and communication and so on so forth!! It was wonderful!!! I will have to post on the subject once I finish reading the whole book!!! :)
I am so thankful for the friends I have had by my side lately :) I really appreciate them more than they know. One of my friends is neck high in nursing school and still finds time to send me encouraging little texts and have little coffee times with me. Another one of my friends is going through her own transformation in another country and has still encouraged me more than she will ever know. I am so excited for the fall that is about to come my way and take me on its wild ride :)
I know it won't all be super easy, but I do know that with my God and with the encouraging friends He has put my side I can do it!!!!
Eric moved into his apartment today and I couldn't be more excited for him. I know he is going to have a fantastic fall pursuing his dream. We are both where we are supposed to be for now, so my smile is on and I am going to enjoy this new experience :)
I start my job training next tuesday. Our uniform is very relaxed for which I am very thankful!!!! Tennis shoes, Jeans, and the company TSHIRT!!!! Yes to no polo!!! :):):) Obviously very happy about this one.
I have been striving to better myself lately so one thing I did yesterday was watch a girl talk DVD with my friend. Girl Talk is something we do at Bellevue where there is a speaker and a specific topic and its a girls night essentially (as if you couldn't have figured that out).
Well this time the speaker Shaunti Feldhahn spoke about her book "For Women Only." I was BLOWN AWAY by the things I learned.
For example: As women we crave love so we would naturally assume men do also....WRONG.... some men would give up hearing his woman say "i Love you" if it meant we could say "we trust, respect, am proud of" etc. Men equate respect with love. If we love them then we will respect them.
Shaunti pointed out that in the Bible we are commanded as wives to "respect our husbands" and as husband they are to "love your wives". WOW!
There were many other subjects such as sex and communication and so on so forth!! It was wonderful!!! I will have to post on the subject once I finish reading the whole book!!! :)
I am so thankful for the friends I have had by my side lately :) I really appreciate them more than they know. One of my friends is neck high in nursing school and still finds time to send me encouraging little texts and have little coffee times with me. Another one of my friends is going through her own transformation in another country and has still encouraged me more than she will ever know. I am so excited for the fall that is about to come my way and take me on its wild ride :)
I know it won't all be super easy, but I do know that with my God and with the encouraging friends He has put my side I can do it!!!!
Eric moved into his apartment today and I couldn't be more excited for him. I know he is going to have a fantastic fall pursuing his dream. We are both where we are supposed to be for now, so my smile is on and I am going to enjoy this new experience :)
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Good feelings
As I woke up this morning (to the whining and general carrying on of the daily fight between my mom and brother to go to school at 6:30) I realized something.... I actually slept well...this is not normal for me I normally toss and turn and wake up multiple times in the middle of the night. As I lay in the bed this morning thinking about this I realized that I always sleep well anytime I go more than 2 miles. Well, if that isn't enough motivation for me to get 2 miles in every day (save Sunday because I am BUSY) than I don't know what it. It's that good feeling that makes it worth while
I am also wondering if this new exercise idea and determination to be my fit self again is one of the reasons I haven't been so stressed and panicked about things changing....once again more motivation to keep on going for sure!!!
Things have changed drastically lately and while I am normally a wreck trying to grasp to one thing of familiarity, I am kind of kicking back and letting things play their course. I have a calm about me and a strength to hold on while I go on this journey. (Don't get me wrong I miss Eric, but it is a healthy missing him, not an unhealthy panicky one) He is doing something that is his dream and at the same time it gives me time to focus and work on me and all my little things I need to work on. The fact that I have been making progress on this is also another good feeling.
I have had time to spend with my grandma lately, something we don't get very often. I appreciate it so much.
I have a friend who has taken this summer and just let go and done things that weren't in her comfort zone and I have watched her (over her blog since she isn't stateside) become a stronger, more confident person. She is conquering her fears and learning so much and becoming so much through them. She is such an encouragement to me more than she will know and I can't wait for her to get back to Memphis. I want to let go this fall and learn new things about myself try things I normally am afraid of or are out of my comfort zone. She has encouraged me to try new things and just let go...and as silly as this sounds she has encouraged me (along with Eric) to keep up running and keep working for it because even though the process of getting up and going running is one that is challenging to motivate oneself to do , the feeling I have afterwards is wonderful and obviously is helping me with said stress. I have my grandma to thank for getting to 3 miles yesterday because after my meager 1.55 miles she wanted to go on a walk and bailed out at .67 but she decided to walk again for 1.13...hence getting my total to over 3 miles. I love my grandma so much and am so glad I can talk to her about anything.
I look back on all my teenage years and realize how ungrateful I was.
I should hear today about this interview I went on yesterday and am excited to find out whether or not I got hired.
Well..I will quit boring yall for now. :)
I am also wondering if this new exercise idea and determination to be my fit self again is one of the reasons I haven't been so stressed and panicked about things changing....once again more motivation to keep on going for sure!!!
Things have changed drastically lately and while I am normally a wreck trying to grasp to one thing of familiarity, I am kind of kicking back and letting things play their course. I have a calm about me and a strength to hold on while I go on this journey. (Don't get me wrong I miss Eric, but it is a healthy missing him, not an unhealthy panicky one) He is doing something that is his dream and at the same time it gives me time to focus and work on me and all my little things I need to work on. The fact that I have been making progress on this is also another good feeling.
I have had time to spend with my grandma lately, something we don't get very often. I appreciate it so much.
I have a friend who has taken this summer and just let go and done things that weren't in her comfort zone and I have watched her (over her blog since she isn't stateside) become a stronger, more confident person. She is conquering her fears and learning so much and becoming so much through them. She is such an encouragement to me more than she will know and I can't wait for her to get back to Memphis. I want to let go this fall and learn new things about myself try things I normally am afraid of or are out of my comfort zone. She has encouraged me to try new things and just let go...and as silly as this sounds she has encouraged me (along with Eric) to keep up running and keep working for it because even though the process of getting up and going running is one that is challenging to motivate oneself to do , the feeling I have afterwards is wonderful and obviously is helping me with said stress. I have my grandma to thank for getting to 3 miles yesterday because after my meager 1.55 miles she wanted to go on a walk and bailed out at .67 but she decided to walk again for 1.13...hence getting my total to over 3 miles. I love my grandma so much and am so glad I can talk to her about anything.
I look back on all my teenage years and realize how ungrateful I was.
I should hear today about this interview I went on yesterday and am excited to find out whether or not I got hired.
Well..I will quit boring yall for now. :)
Monday, August 15, 2011
Fall coming up
So yesterday was the day we sent Eric off on his journey to the place where dreams really do come true.
He gets to work at one of his favorite places on the planet for 4 and half months and I'm still saying it..I COULD NOT BE ANY PROUDER!!! He knew his goal, he went for it, and he conquered it!! Thats what kind of guy I want, a guy who is a go getter. :) There were tears yesterday (yes even from him) but we knew we were letting him go for something that was his dream and that made it all worth while. Will I miss him? YES. However, he has dreamed of this for so long and what kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn't let him chase his dreams? After all, he has supported me with some of mine for the past year :) Couldn't ask for a better guy....anyway off the mushy stuff
So today starts my 5 months where I get to learn a little about myself. I dove right on in with a job interview at 10:30 this morning at Mr. P's Buffalo WIngs Plus in Cordova. It went very well. The owner is a nice gentlemen who is not money happy but is one of those guys who is more interested in making sure the customer feels welcome and wanted and building relationships with the customer...you know the kind where they can walk in and we can just say, " Hey Mr. Brown , you wanting the usual today?" "How is the family" and so on so forth. I will find out tomorrow whether or not I got the job but the owner says it looks promising. I like that answer, although I won't get all my hopes hung on it. A job is on of my steps in saving up money for bills, life, and a trip to Disney, but also to keep me busy this semester with school and work. I pretty much have my priorities straight at the moment :)
I start house sitting this week. I am so excited. I have house sitted for this family before and they have the two most adorable dogs that love to cuddle. No joke. I always wake up with one on my chest or in the crook of my arm. They are so well behaved. This family also lives in a quiet neighborhood with a lovely house. i always just have time to relax and think when I stay at their house. Can't wait.
Well I have postponed a run until later this evening with the plan of napping this afternoon. Lazy I know but I am just so exhausted from the last few days with Eric and his family as we were going non stop to fit in every last second that we could with him. That and the combination of my brother yelling every monrning about not wanting to go to school at6 every morning and waking the whole house up have made me very sleepy. Haha
Well that's all I shall bore you with now I suppose.
:)
He gets to work at one of his favorite places on the planet for 4 and half months and I'm still saying it..I COULD NOT BE ANY PROUDER!!! He knew his goal, he went for it, and he conquered it!! Thats what kind of guy I want, a guy who is a go getter. :) There were tears yesterday (yes even from him) but we knew we were letting him go for something that was his dream and that made it all worth while. Will I miss him? YES. However, he has dreamed of this for so long and what kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn't let him chase his dreams? After all, he has supported me with some of mine for the past year :) Couldn't ask for a better guy....anyway off the mushy stuff
So today starts my 5 months where I get to learn a little about myself. I dove right on in with a job interview at 10:30 this morning at Mr. P's Buffalo WIngs Plus in Cordova. It went very well. The owner is a nice gentlemen who is not money happy but is one of those guys who is more interested in making sure the customer feels welcome and wanted and building relationships with the customer...you know the kind where they can walk in and we can just say, " Hey Mr. Brown , you wanting the usual today?" "How is the family" and so on so forth. I will find out tomorrow whether or not I got the job but the owner says it looks promising. I like that answer, although I won't get all my hopes hung on it. A job is on of my steps in saving up money for bills, life, and a trip to Disney, but also to keep me busy this semester with school and work. I pretty much have my priorities straight at the moment :)
I start house sitting this week. I am so excited. I have house sitted for this family before and they have the two most adorable dogs that love to cuddle. No joke. I always wake up with one on my chest or in the crook of my arm. They are so well behaved. This family also lives in a quiet neighborhood with a lovely house. i always just have time to relax and think when I stay at their house. Can't wait.
Well I have postponed a run until later this evening with the plan of napping this afternoon. Lazy I know but I am just so exhausted from the last few days with Eric and his family as we were going non stop to fit in every last second that we could with him. That and the combination of my brother yelling every monrning about not wanting to go to school at6 every morning and waking the whole house up have made me very sleepy. Haha
Well that's all I shall bore you with now I suppose.
:)
Saturday, August 13, 2011
T-1 day... Here we go
Today's post shall be short and sweet...mostly because I am spending the whole day with Eric and his family but while we are all resting I figured I would sneak this in very quickly.
Eric leaves tomorrow and I think I have successfully prepared myself for it mentally. I can only contribute this to God because I have never had peace like this before. I can already feel Satan trying to move in on my thoughts and emotions over Eric leaving, but I am confident in my position of feelings and the peace that God has given me.
For this week the fear I have been facing is openly facing the fact that Eric is leaving. Normally anything I don't want to think about for fear of letting it overtake me is openly acknowledging something. I'm scared to. This week I have been openly acknowledging the fact that Eric is leaving every day and telling myself it will be okay and not to be overdramatic. I know I sound hopeless but I really have been doing better. I learned that by openly facing this now I am actually much more prepared for Eric's departure. I know my best friend will be miles away but that we will have connections.
Well thats all for now.
Have a great week!!!
Eric leaves tomorrow and I think I have successfully prepared myself for it mentally. I can only contribute this to God because I have never had peace like this before. I can already feel Satan trying to move in on my thoughts and emotions over Eric leaving, but I am confident in my position of feelings and the peace that God has given me.
For this week the fear I have been facing is openly facing the fact that Eric is leaving. Normally anything I don't want to think about for fear of letting it overtake me is openly acknowledging something. I'm scared to. This week I have been openly acknowledging the fact that Eric is leaving every day and telling myself it will be okay and not to be overdramatic. I know I sound hopeless but I really have been doing better. I learned that by openly facing this now I am actually much more prepared for Eric's departure. I know my best friend will be miles away but that we will have connections.
Well thats all for now.
Have a great week!!!
Friday, August 12, 2011
T- 2 days and counting..
First of all let me stress I can't thank God enough for the awesome opportunity He is giving Eric and allowing him to go on this internship. I am so proud of Eric as well. Also, I guess I should thank God in advance for what He will probably teach me on this journey ahead of me. For those of yall who don't know me well enough. I am not a big one for change. I mean once the results are in I am thankful for the change, however, the whole process of change is one I struggle with. I like things to be the norm and when a change comes that isn't the norm. I'm weird I know I know. However, I have run across many encouraging things lately and I am giong to go against the norm (mini freak out moment) and try to dive head first into change, to beat it to the chase so to speak.
One thing I really struggle with is fear...fear of change...fear of losing people I love...fear of new situations...this fall I am going to strive to face these fears... Ralph Waldo Emerson once said..."It was from a high counsel I once heard given a young man ..Do what you are afraid to do."
I think alot of what holds me back from trying new things and things I am afraid to do is ultimately the fear of failure...when looking back in my life I realize that everyone who does something makes a mistake...the only ones who don't make mistakes are those who don't try it. This fall I am going to resolve to try to do something at least once a week that I would normally be afriad to do.
My God tells me in 2 Timothy 1:7- "For God hath not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and of a sound mind." My fear isn't from God it is from Satan himself. I don't want Satan to have the glory. So no matter how much my knees shake, I am going to try new things this fall and try to leave my cozy, little bubble and enjoy life without the fear of new things :)
One thing I really struggle with is fear...fear of change...fear of losing people I love...fear of new situations...this fall I am going to strive to face these fears... Ralph Waldo Emerson once said..."It was from a high counsel I once heard given a young man ..Do what you are afraid to do."
I think alot of what holds me back from trying new things and things I am afraid to do is ultimately the fear of failure...when looking back in my life I realize that everyone who does something makes a mistake...the only ones who don't make mistakes are those who don't try it. This fall I am going to resolve to try to do something at least once a week that I would normally be afriad to do.
My God tells me in 2 Timothy 1:7- "For God hath not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and of a sound mind." My fear isn't from God it is from Satan himself. I don't want Satan to have the glory. So no matter how much my knees shake, I am going to try new things this fall and try to leave my cozy, little bubble and enjoy life without the fear of new things :)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
A season of Change
Change.
That will definitely be my theme for this fall.
I guess it can kind of tie in with my other theme for this year which has been growth.
I am going to have many changes this fall. Eric as well.
Eric is leaving to go start his internship with Disney World for the fall semester in just 4 short days.
Will I miss him? OF COURSE!!!
But, in spite of that, I am so incredibly proud of him and all he is accomplishing for himself, and in the long run, us.
I have realized several things about myself since I found out of his departure in March.
#1- my friends have changed..until recently i have had the same set of friends almost since highschool (which most of have faded away, not because of bad situations, but after highschool with college and relationships that just happens.) There is a season for everything. I have made lots of new friends recently and reconnected with some middle school friends. I can't wait to get to know my new friends better and make my relationships stronger with old friends this fall. I feel like i kind of neglected this due to the fact that i have awful social anxiety (shocker to those of yall who KNOW me i know.) and the fact that I had my best friend with me I felt like I would be abandoning him ( I have also had a real life lesson recently about being too attached. Eye opener. but there can be another post for that)
So this fall. I am going to face my fear and come out of my shell and get to know my current friends better and even strive to meet new friends :)
#2- school....I have struggled back and forth with what I have wanted to do. I started nursing, but to be honest, wasn't as serious as I should have been about it. Going to a private school for highschool kind of spoiled me for college. At Central no teacher wanted you to fail so I, along with many other students, were spoiled with full grades for late assignments etc. This led to me being lazy in college and after not making adequate grades in a few classes I got very discouraged. This led me to go to Concorde and get my diploma in Medical Assisting. Upon completing my externship for this I had many people, all professional, family, and friends tell me i was cheating myself with what I could do in life. Would I change going to Concorde...No, I learned some valuable lessons, skills, and six months of work experience and met some wonderful people. One again a season for everything. After much prayer and consulting with trusted people I have decided to go back to Memphis and finish up my gen eds for nursing. God truly is wonderful I eneded up getting enough money to be getting paid to go to school. (a real relief since tuition was hiked up 11% this school year...
#3-long distance relationship- I am not complaining in the least bit when i say this, only that it will be a change, a challenge in essence. I am sure I will learn alot about myself with Eric a couple hundred miles away. We are both going to miss each other. We are trying to focus on our future together and get the ball rolling haha. Thank God for skype and other modern things. :)
Well thats about all the time i have for this splurge of thought.
Peace.
That will definitely be my theme for this fall.
I guess it can kind of tie in with my other theme for this year which has been growth.
I am going to have many changes this fall. Eric as well.
Eric is leaving to go start his internship with Disney World for the fall semester in just 4 short days.
Will I miss him? OF COURSE!!!
But, in spite of that, I am so incredibly proud of him and all he is accomplishing for himself, and in the long run, us.
I have realized several things about myself since I found out of his departure in March.
#1- my friends have changed..until recently i have had the same set of friends almost since highschool (which most of have faded away, not because of bad situations, but after highschool with college and relationships that just happens.) There is a season for everything. I have made lots of new friends recently and reconnected with some middle school friends. I can't wait to get to know my new friends better and make my relationships stronger with old friends this fall. I feel like i kind of neglected this due to the fact that i have awful social anxiety (shocker to those of yall who KNOW me i know.) and the fact that I had my best friend with me I felt like I would be abandoning him ( I have also had a real life lesson recently about being too attached. Eye opener. but there can be another post for that)
So this fall. I am going to face my fear and come out of my shell and get to know my current friends better and even strive to meet new friends :)
#2- school....I have struggled back and forth with what I have wanted to do. I started nursing, but to be honest, wasn't as serious as I should have been about it. Going to a private school for highschool kind of spoiled me for college. At Central no teacher wanted you to fail so I, along with many other students, were spoiled with full grades for late assignments etc. This led to me being lazy in college and after not making adequate grades in a few classes I got very discouraged. This led me to go to Concorde and get my diploma in Medical Assisting. Upon completing my externship for this I had many people, all professional, family, and friends tell me i was cheating myself with what I could do in life. Would I change going to Concorde...No, I learned some valuable lessons, skills, and six months of work experience and met some wonderful people. One again a season for everything. After much prayer and consulting with trusted people I have decided to go back to Memphis and finish up my gen eds for nursing. God truly is wonderful I eneded up getting enough money to be getting paid to go to school. (a real relief since tuition was hiked up 11% this school year...
#3-long distance relationship- I am not complaining in the least bit when i say this, only that it will be a change, a challenge in essence. I am sure I will learn alot about myself with Eric a couple hundred miles away. We are both going to miss each other. We are trying to focus on our future together and get the ball rolling haha. Thank God for skype and other modern things. :)
Well thats about all the time i have for this splurge of thought.
Peace.
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