Change.
That will definitely be my theme for this fall.
I guess it can kind of tie in with my other theme for this year which has been growth.
I am going to have many changes this fall. Eric as well.
Eric is leaving to go start his internship with Disney World for the fall semester in just 4 short days.
Will I miss him? OF COURSE!!!
But, in spite of that, I am so incredibly proud of him and all he is accomplishing for himself, and in the long run, us.
I have realized several things about myself since I found out of his departure in March.
#1- my friends have changed..until recently i have had the same set of friends almost since highschool (which most of have faded away, not because of bad situations, but after highschool with college and relationships that just happens.) There is a season for everything. I have made lots of new friends recently and reconnected with some middle school friends. I can't wait to get to know my new friends better and make my relationships stronger with old friends this fall. I feel like i kind of neglected this due to the fact that i have awful social anxiety (shocker to those of yall who KNOW me i know.) and the fact that I had my best friend with me I felt like I would be abandoning him ( I have also had a real life lesson recently about being too attached. Eye opener. but there can be another post for that)
So this fall. I am going to face my fear and come out of my shell and get to know my current friends better and even strive to meet new friends :)
#2- school....I have struggled back and forth with what I have wanted to do. I started nursing, but to be honest, wasn't as serious as I should have been about it. Going to a private school for highschool kind of spoiled me for college. At Central no teacher wanted you to fail so I, along with many other students, were spoiled with full grades for late assignments etc. This led to me being lazy in college and after not making adequate grades in a few classes I got very discouraged. This led me to go to Concorde and get my diploma in Medical Assisting. Upon completing my externship for this I had many people, all professional, family, and friends tell me i was cheating myself with what I could do in life. Would I change going to Concorde...No, I learned some valuable lessons, skills, and six months of work experience and met some wonderful people. One again a season for everything. After much prayer and consulting with trusted people I have decided to go back to Memphis and finish up my gen eds for nursing. God truly is wonderful I eneded up getting enough money to be getting paid to go to school. (a real relief since tuition was hiked up 11% this school year...
#3-long distance relationship- I am not complaining in the least bit when i say this, only that it will be a change, a challenge in essence. I am sure I will learn alot about myself with Eric a couple hundred miles away. We are both going to miss each other. We are trying to focus on our future together and get the ball rolling haha. Thank God for skype and other modern things. :)
Well thats about all the time i have for this splurge of thought.
Peace.
Friend - I am with you on each and every part of this post.
ReplyDeleteWith school, I totally struggled. I don't know if Eric told you... but this is my 5th major. I flip flopped and didn't do well in classes and almost left college. This is the time to figure out what you want to do! You don't want to be 40, working at a job you hate. You don't want a job - you want a career. I know you have it in you to do well. :)
Friends are super tricky - at least mine always have been. As a fellow social anxiety person, it's so hard for us to get up the courage to meet new people. (I'm sure you can imagine how nervous I am about this Florida thing.)
And the long distance thing, it's going to kill me. I don't want to be one of those girls who is like "omgicantlivewithouthim" but we started dating in 2006 taking classes together and being in band. In 2007 we got a job at the same place and we've seen each other practically every single day of our relationship. This is going to be so hard. I'm with you - thank goodness for Skype dates and cell phone and texting. He's going to visit in October and mayyyyybe in December and he's coming to get me in January and cheering for me (and Eric) in the half marathon!
Also, I can't wait to meet you in person when you come to visit!!
I can't wait to meet you in person either!!! I will be down in October AND I am coming to cheer Eric on in the half marathon as well!!!!!
ReplyDeleteyou need to blog more. i love reading your posts. :) I can't wait to see you soon pretty lady. I can't believe we won't have Eric by the time I see you again!
ReplyDeleteMadison -I know it def. won't be the same without him....but at least the three musketeers of Eric, Craig, and Sandy will be broken up. :)
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