Good feelings

As I woke up this morning (to the whining and general carrying on of the daily fight between my mom and brother to go to school at 6:30) I realized something.... I actually slept well...this is not normal for me I normally toss and turn and wake up multiple times in the middle of the night. As I lay in the bed this morning thinking about this I realized that I always sleep well anytime I go more than  2 miles. Well, if that isn't enough motivation for me to get 2 miles in every day (save Sunday because I am BUSY) than I don't know what it. It's that good feeling that makes it worth while


I am also wondering if this new exercise idea and determination to be my fit self again is one of the reasons I haven't been so stressed and panicked about things changing....once again more motivation to keep on going for sure!!!
Things have changed drastically lately and while I am normally a wreck trying to grasp to one thing of familiarity, I am kind of kicking back and letting things play their course. I have a calm about me and a strength to hold on while I go on this journey. (Don't get me wrong I miss Eric, but it is a healthy missing him, not an unhealthy panicky one) He is doing something that is his dream and at the same time it gives me time to focus and work on me and all my little things I need to work on. The fact that I have been making progress on this is also another good feeling.

I have had time to spend with my grandma lately, something we don't get very often. I appreciate it so much.

I have a friend who has taken this summer and just let go and done things that weren't in her comfort zone and I have watched her (over her blog since she isn't stateside) become a stronger, more confident person.  She is conquering her fears and learning so much and becoming so much through them. She is such an encouragement to me more than she will know and I can't wait for her to get back to Memphis. I want to let go this fall and learn new things about myself try things I normally am afraid of or are out of my comfort zone.  She has encouraged me to try new things and just let go...and as silly as this sounds she has encouraged me (along with Eric) to keep up running and keep working for it because even though the process of getting up and going running is one that is challenging to motivate oneself to do , the feeling I have afterwards is wonderful and obviously is helping me with said stress. I have my grandma to thank for getting to 3 miles yesterday because after my meager 1.55 miles she wanted to go on  a walk and bailed out at .67 but she decided to walk again for 1.13...hence getting my total to over 3 miles. I love my grandma so much and am so glad I can talk to her about anything.
I look back on all my teenage years and realize how ungrateful I was.

I should hear today about this interview I went on yesterday and am excited to find out whether or not I got hired.
Well..I will quit boring yall for now. :)