Somewhere in the middle of this semester I lost track of time. I'm so glad it has flown by I am so close to having E in the same city as myself. I've been working full time and going to school full time and I am really starting to feel it (don't misconstrue this as complaining) I am so blessed to have the job I have and the boss I have. I lucked out by getting this job. I work some strenuous hours but with only two cashiers at the moment that is to be expected.I enjoy my job, I mean my life goal isn't to see wings but for now its a reasonable job with good hours and pay to get through school.
I've been overwhelmed the past few days, not in a bad way, just realizations that are sinking in. when I verbalize I'm overwhelmed I feel sort of silly for being overwhelmed when I think about what all my friends are going through in their life. My silly little realizations such as I'm moving in January (I still don't think it has really sunk in yet. ) and the fact I'm getting married in a year are mind blowing. I will miss my family I know but I am excited about the new adventures and beginning the rest of my life with my best friend.
Another overwhelming thought....school. I becoming more aware lately that nursing may have just been a dream of mine but now Gods plan for me. I am happy with being a medical assistant I really am. I think it really is where my heart lies. The more I pursue and finish my Spanish minor the more I realize I'm in LOVE withthe language an the culture. The more I pray the more I realize I want to be completely bilingual. I am finding myself wondering if I have been wasting these years of nursing on a selfish dream instead of realizing it's my Spanish major I am supposed to be getting so I can live in a bilingual city (Orlando) and so I can use Spanish in medicine as a medical assistant or patient care assistant or in whatever other capacity God has for me down the road. It's hard to acknowledge that you have chased a dream blindly bc you wanted it. Well let me modify I feel like my nursing isn't to be done at Memphis. Ive been pondering nursing at Concorde in Tampa. I'm just not sure however (prayers appreciated) so now I struggle with the decision of whether or not to finish out ny Spanish major at memphis (to my understanding I would maybe be ab a year away. ) or just stop altogether (it hardly seems worth it to stop when I'm so close to something. I love Spanish I love my classes. It's the one class I never skip and the one I never check the clock or want to leave. I feel such a strong tug towards Spanish ( I really feel like it's the Holy Spirit) I know God will provide for His plan just waiting and praying and tomorrow it's final decision time. For now I just keep swimming!
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